Tuesday, May 12, 2009

I might as well live...

“Razors pain you; rivers are damp; acids stain you; and drugs cause cramp. Guns aren't lawful; nooses give; gas smells awful; you might as well live.”

Friday, May 8, 2009

The Breakfast Club

Just in case you didn't think I have enough lame t-shirts...

Thursday, May 7, 2009


Lots of new-old pictures on Flickr tonight...

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

The newest addition to my awesome wardrobe...

I've always been more of a cole slaw girl...

...but this makes me want potato salad!


It's the little things that make life just a wee bit easier...

Tuesday, May 5, 2009


I'm in love with shirt.woot!. The images above are all t-shirts I've gotten from them. Pretty awesome, huh?

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Book thing....

I was "tagged" on Facebook to do this Q&A thing and I'm ready to blog about something that doesn't make me cry so here goes -

1) What author do you own the most books by?
Kurt Vonnegut

2) What book do you own the most copies of?
I can't think of any that I have more than one of.

3) Did it bother you that both those questions ended with prepositions?

4) What fictional character are you secretly in love with?
Mark Renton from Trainspotting.

5) What book have you read the most times in your life?
I will guess The Monster at the End of This Book, starring Grover.

6) What was your favorite book when you were ten years old?
Pippi in the South Seas

7) What is the worst book you've read in the past year?
I have not been reading much in the past year...probably something about project management or software development.

8) What is the best book you've read in the past year?
Art Journals and Creative Healing: Restoring the Spirit Through Self-Expression
or The 4 Hour Work Week

9)If you could force everyone you tagged to read one book, what would it be?
I don't plan on "tagging" anybody, but I think everybody should read 1984.

10) Who deserves to win the next Nobel Prize for literature?
I have no idea who has won it in the past or what the criteria are, but I love David Sedaris so I'll say him.

11) What book would you most like to see made into a movie?
Eh...Maybe Porno, if it had the same cast as Trainspotting.

12) What book would you least like to see made into a movie?
I don't really care - I hardly ever watch movies.

13) Describe your weirdest dream involving a writer, book, or literary character.
I don't think I've ever had a dream of that sort.

14) What is the most lowbrow book you've read as an adult?
I don't read grocery store trash. (I still have the pretentious English major in me!)

15) What is the most difficult book you've ever read?
The first that comes to mind is Tender Buttons by Gertrude Stein.

16) What is the most obscure Shakespeare play you've seen?
Pericles, Prince of Tyre - just try and get more obscure than THAT.

17) Do you prefer the French or the Russians?
I liked Anna Karenina more than Madame Bovary...

18) Roth or Updike?
No opinion - haven't read either.

19) David Sedaris or Dave Eggers?
David Sedaris - Eggers can come up with a good title and write a decent introduction, but then...zzzzzzzzz...

20) Shakespeare, Milton, or Chaucer?
This is a dumb question - they are totally different with no grounds for comparison.

21) Austen or Eliot?
T.S. Eliot or George Eliot? It doesn't really matter - I'm not particularly fond of any of them.

22) What is the biggest or most embarrassing gap in your reading?
I haven't read a novel in over a year. I listen to audio books and read non-fiction...I don't know if I'll go back to reading tons of fiction or not and either way, I'm not embarrassed about my reading habits.

23) What is your favorite novel?
Gone With The Wind

24) Play?
King Lear or All My Sons, if you're in the mood to kill yourself

25) Poem?
Ummm...I guess "America" by Ginnsberg

26) Essay?
I'm not really sure what counts as an "essay" and the definition in my dictionary of literary terms looked long and boring so I'll just say "6 to 8 Black Men" by David Sedaris.

27) Short story?
"The Story of the Old Ram" by Mark Twain

28) Work of non-fiction?
Me Talk Pretty One Day, assuming that counts?

29) Who is your favorite writer?
Irvine Welsh, Kurt Vonnegut, Margaret Atwood, Ernie Hemingway, David Sedaris, Tim O'Brien, Shannon Olson

30) Who is the most overrated writer alive today?
Augusten Burroughs...he's ok, but people seem to really like him and I just don't get it.

31) What is your desert island book?
The Sex Lives of Cannibals: Adrift in the Equatorial Pacific by J. Maarten Troost - it's quite funny and seems applicable.

32) And ... what are you reading right now?
Alphabetica: An A-Z Creativity Guide for Collage and Book Artists

I wish...

I wish...

...it didn't hurt so much.

I'm tired of being strong.


Saturday, May 2, 2009

Comfort a'la Winnie the Pooh

If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together.. there is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. but the most important thing is, even if we're apart.. i'll always be with you.

So. This is life.

Well. Here I am.

It's funny how everything just goes on as though I never had a dad, as though he never died, as though I never hurt so freaking much.

I'm ok, though.

I really am.

I don't quite understand how...

I think I should be a mess, but I'm not.

It's not because I don't miss him.

I miss him so much. Every. Single. Day.

I miss him.

I'm strong.

I don't know how, but I am strong.

Some days are harder than others. Nights tend to be harder than the days. I get through them both, though.

Sometimes I want to kick and scream and yell and cry till my daddy comes back and makes it all better.

But I am strong.

Sometimes at night, I hold the stuffed bunny he held in one hand while he held mine in the other as he died and wish I could feel something.

Something spiritual.

Something deep.

Something meaningful.

I just feel empty and alone and sad and scared.

But I'm ok.

Somehow, I am ok.

There's nothing that can make this easier; nobody who can help. It is what it is.

Yet, I'm so grateful that I'm not alone.

It doesn't matter if anybody understands. I don't want them to. In fact, I wouldn't wish this on anybody.

It only matters that I'm not alone.