Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Sigh....I miss my daddy...

I am missing my dad so much lately...there's no specific reason why I'd be thinking of him in the middle of February....but I can't think of much else.

I wonder where he is...

Is he thinking about me?

Does he miss me?

Can he feel how much I miss him?

Did he know I was there - till the very end?

I have no idea.

I don't even know why it matters...I would've been there either way.  Just like all the Father's Day presents that still had the tags on them 2 or 4 or 10 years later.

My dad and I could be in a car together for 3 hours and say less than a dozen words to each other the whole time, but still have an awesome time. 

I tend to believe THAT's how you know you're close to somebody....

Yet, I can't hear him say he loved me.

I hate that.

4 comments:

Sandy said...

I'm sure he knows how much you miss him. Getting over someone you lost takes so much time. You won't ever forget about him and don't apoligize for your feelings. Sending big cyber hugs your way.

Anonymous said...

Honey, he can FEEL your love! He KNEW/KNOWS your love! Good days and bad days...you'll have them. Just know that as much as you know he loved/loves you...he knows the same! And I know he's damn proud of the woman that he raised!

xoxo
Leslie

roxyf said...

actions speak louder than words

Amy Jane said...

Thank you...

It helps SO MUCH to know I'm not "crazy"....(i.e. the only person to ever feel like this.)