Monday, January 31, 2011

A Day in my Life...2008

 3 years ago - January 31, 2008 - I decided to document a day in my life.  I'd just joined Flickr and read Ali Edwards' Life Artist and was feeling *quite* inspired...

I didn't do a great job of it, as far as documentation goes: I don't have much besides some random pictures and very vague and unimportant memories...but that has value, I guess.  At any rate, it's refreshing to know that I'm just as random as I've ever been!
I thought about documenting my day 3 years later (I really like arbitrary anniversaries), but my I just wasn't feeling it - and taking pictures while driving through a Minnesota winter is just a BAD idea.

My life 3 years ago was somewhat more entertaining, though...

Freaking coldOnce upon a time, in the magical world of suburbia, a weird and random, whimsical sort of girl lived in a little yellow house in the Land of the Crapids.

It was in the Before Time - a time when life made sense; a time when things were exciting, when nothing seemed impossible - and nothing was...
Looking Up

...a time with MUCH less snow...but it was still cold.

iTunesAnyway, our little heroine loved podcasts...

Daily luggage
...and her Timbuk2 bags...

...and her job...

Still kinda cute, though
The end of the day.even if it was a wee bit exhausting sometimes.

My new cell phone!
Her cell phone kinda sucked, but that secretly made her very happy because it meant she got a brand new one!
Bailey's ready for bed

OrangeShe wasn't all alone, though.  She had her faithful mutt, Bailey...

...a boy she thought she really liked...

Love is...

Right side of my fridge
...and a very good friend who reminded her that she really didn't.

YumHer fridge was decorated in her randomly whimsical...and weird way - and also stocked with the finest of girl-drinks!

What I doShe used iChat on her iMac and wrote the boring details of her day on a blog called {Amy_Jane}.

I Love my Clancy t-shirtLife was a wee bit crazy for our little girl in the little yellow house in the Crapids...but she wore a blue T-shirt with a little giraffe on it...and that somehow made everything ok.

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Around my neck everyday...

Miss you, Dad.

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Friday...more or less...

1. So many of us really will be ok.

2. Life goes on... even in hardship.

3. Those who are accepting of me and are awesome.

4. The future is waiting quietly.

5. Light is in both the sky and the paint section.

6. I'm really not the best example of all that is ordinary.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to eh...., tomorrow my plans include the usual - library, knitting, Netflix....and Sunday, I want to eat ice cream!!!!!

Sunday, January 9, 2011

30 days of thirtiness

I've been 30 for 30 days now - and it has been very uneventful. I haven't had any huge, life-shifting reflections or monumental memories. Being 30 feels a whole lot like being 29.

I have, however,....

Watched a whole lot of Netflix
Become addicted to Dr Who
Knit at least 2 scarves and 3 hats
Become a very proud owner of a *convection oven* and an *iPad*
Got to see Nic J
Been an icky ball of sickness
Celebrated Bailey's 4th birthday
Done a fair amount of yarn-shopping
Power-cleaned my house...more or less...
Got a new-old type set drawer to add to my collection
Hosted a "family dinner"
Decorated a little Xmas tree
Eaten several fried eggs on toast
Danced around the living room with John
Ordered Jimmy John's at work about 5 times
Wished I had much shorter hair
Enjoyed many Clementines
Missed my BFF and my dad
Seen my grandparents and my uncle & family
Slept about 4 hours a night, on average
Made a snow angel 30 is ok...

Saturday, January 8, 2011

When I grow up...

When I grow up, I want to be the kind of person who gets invited to TED.

The podcast will just have to do for now...


As always, you can find the Friday Fill-In here!

1. It's 2011; I don't especially care.

2. I do not eat pickles.

3. Thankfully I have my super awesome new iPad - it's done a very good job of entertaining me while I've been sick in bed and on the couch all week.

4. I miss a lot of the best things in life.

5. I am so sick of being sick!!!!!

6. I bowl VERY badly.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to not feeling sick and icky, tomorrow my plans include going to the library, knitting, and watching Dr. Who and Sunday, I want to [insert my plans for Saturday]!

Sunday, January 2, 2011

I have a very depressing blog...

I've been thinking about my blog...and my thoughts...basically, life, the universe, and everything.

I think of my blog as a snapshot of my mind at any given moment. I think there is inherent value in that...but I often wonder why I make it public. I don't really know who, if anybody, reads it. I don't know what I offer that is of value or what, if anything, it'll ever mean to anybody.

That being said, I find myself filtering what i choose to post more and more.

Maybe that's good?

I know a lot of my posts are depressing. I know I often write - and talk - about depressing things. My dad especially...

I don't think i should apologize for that - and I'm not...but I do feel weird about it.

I am not crazy-depressed all the time. I am not obsessed with death. I am moving on in as normal of a way as can be expected - and while I don't know what "normal" is, I do believe that grief has a timeline all its own.

That being said, I write when I NEED to write.

When my thoughts explode, I write.

When I can't kick and scream and cry, I write.

When nobody understands, I write.

But why...? Why share it with anybody who happens to notice it? I don't know...

I really don't.

I talk about my dad when i think of him - which is often - and, believe it or not, it makes me happy to do so. Memories are what keeps me with him...

I don't know why I feel like I should apologize for that...

I like my life. I'm grateful for it and the people and things that fill it...feeling sad doesn't cancel that out. It really doesn't...


2007, 2008, 2009, and now...


1. Who was your first kiss of 2010?
  • John
2. Who do you think will be your last kiss of 2010?
  • It was John.
3. What was your best vacation/trip in 2010?
  • I didn't go anywhere in 2010...and that is a horribly depressing realization....
4. Who was your best friend through out the whole 2010?
  • Deonna
5. How many times did you move this year?
  • No moving for me
6. Did you make any new friends in the year 2010?
  • A few of my new co-workers have become friends - Scott, Kunal, Aravinda, etc  - and if I'm forgetting you, but you're reading this, I'm sorry!  You're a new friend :)  Also, Tami via Nic J!
7. How many different people did you kiss in the year 2010?
  • Just one!
8. Were you single or taken most of 2010?
  • I wouldn't say "taken" - that's a wee dated...but I have been in a relationship.
9. Did you lose any friends in the year 2010?
  • I lost my BFF to Florida.  :(
10. Favorite tv show of 2010?
  • Law and Order: SVU, Shaun the Sheep, Weeds, Dr. Who, Jon & Kate + 8, Pawn Stars, American Pickers, The Office...and a gazillion more...I am addicted to NetFlix
11. Any new additions to the family in 2010?
  • No
12. Any new tattoos in 2010?
  • Nope, but I still want to get one in honor of my dad
13. Do anything you regret in 2010?
  • Hindsight is 20/20
14. Favorite new item in 2010?
  • All my wonderful Malabrigo yarn, NetFlix via the Wii
15. How old did you turn in 2010?
  • The big 3-0
16. Did you go to prom in 2010?
  • This is a stupid question and I am ignoring it from now on.
17. Favorite memory of 2010?
  • hasn't been an especially memorable year...reading nursery rhymes and toasting with Violet always makes me smile, though!  :)
18. Did anyone close to you die in 2010?
  • No
19. Do you think 2011 will be better than 2010?
  • I hope so.
20. What did you do on new years eve?
  • Dealt with the New Year's Curse while knitting and watching Dr. Who.  I hate New Year's Eve.
21. What is the status of you and the last person you texted?
  • I <3 Other Amy
22. What is wrong with you right now?
  • I feel really out of it.  I think my brain is on another planet.
23. Do you miss your first love?
  • Nah, I see him all the time. Other Amy makes him very happy. :) (Same answer - always!)
24. When did you last cry?
  • Yesterday
25. Who do you hate?
  • I still hate my old boss.
26. What do you want in your life right now?
  • Peace. Security. Love.  Happiness.
27. Are you happy?
  • I've been happier, but I get by.
28. What do you smell like?
  • Nothing in particular...I hope.
29. Drinking?
  • Sure.
30. What’s your favorite thing to have on your bed?
  • Covers.  Can't sleep without covers.
31. What do you wear to bed?
  • Last night it was my favorite yellow sweat pants and a Woot! t-shirt...pretty typical.
32. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
  • Probably - I think too much.
33. Whose house did you go to last night?
  • My very own.
34. What about the night before that?
  • See #33
35. Do you like anyone right now?
  • I like people who aren't stupid and who don't waste my time.
36. What is the last movie you watched?
  • Office Tigers was the last new movie I watched with mostly full attention - I watched National Lampoon's Xmas Vacation, Home Alone 2, A Xmas Story, and Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring on Christmas, but I've seen all those before lots of times and only half-paid attention.  Office Tigers was quite good, by the way.
37. What are you excited about?
  • Going to Florida and seeing my BFF!!!!
38. Who was last to touch your ass?
  • He knows who he is.
39. When you sleep, do you dream about heroin addicts?
  • No....but I wouldn't mind dreaming about Ewan McGregor....and he was a heroin addict in Trainsppotting.
40. Whats on your mind right now?
  • "blaaaaahhhhh..."
41. Who was the last person to make you cry?
  • Just me, I guess.
42. Name someone whose name starts with the letter "R."
  • Rodia
43. Do you care what others think about you?
  • Yes
44. Do you trust people easily?
  • Sometimes...but sometimes I should probably trust more easily...
45. Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?
  • Hope so.
46. Will you kiss the last person you kissed again?
  • Yep
47. Whats your first text in your inbox say?
  • I just cleaned out my inbox!  The most recent one that is still there is from Gino via Facebook - he'd be jealous of my new iPad if it wasn't an iPad.  :)
48. Who was the last person you called?
  • John
49. Who was the last missed call?
  • Also John.
50. What's your ring tone?
  • Depends on who is calling, but my current default is the theme song to Weeds (season 1 version)
51. Do you plan on moving out in the next year?
  • Nope.
52. What were you doing at 8pm last Friday night?
  • Last Friday was New Year's Eve...I was knitting and listening to an audio book with John - he was playing World of Warcraft.  I am slowly coming to terms with the fact that my boyfriend plays World of Warcraft...
53. What happened at 10:00 am today?
  • Waking up with my boys and podcasts.